Once I was bitter and broken hearted. I was stupid and ignorant, and I treated You as a wild animal would. But I never really left You, and You held my right hand. Your advice has been my guide, and later You will welcome me in glory. In heaven I have only You, and on this earth You are all I want. My body and mind may fail, but You are my strength and my choice forever.
I accepted Jesus into my heart when I was 7 years old. It was shortly after that, that the abuse started. The abuse came from my parents and my church. Yes, those closest to me, those who were supposed to reflect Christ’s love to me, abused me horribly. In my anger and pain, I rebelled. I ran. I didn’t want any part of a God that would allow these atrocities to happen. Deep in my heart, I knew what was right. I knew that I was living in a way unpleasing to God. I shook my fist at Him all the time. I treated Him with malice and anger. But, and this is hard to explain…but I knew He loved me and so I never let go completely. Eventually, He sent someone to help me and to introduce me to this amazing God of grace and love. Since then, I have embraced my heavenly Father with a love I never imagined possible.
He is my strength and my choice forever.
Denise Feller